One more week. By the time this gets published we are down to 5 more days. 5 more days until moving day! Well, I really thought I would write more about this transition process of going back to Germany. This crazy, somewhat unreal state-of-mind that I’m currently in and that I’ve been in for a while.
Truth is: I’ve realized that it’s hard for me to write about things that I’m experiencing in real-time. I like to process, to think things through. And I usually only write once I see everything more clearly. But my thoughts are a mess right now. I’m constantly jumping from one topic to another, writing to-do-lists and packing suitcases in my head and on paper. Waiting for it all to finally start.
On top, the whole transition / moving process has not been very interesting so far. Sure, we’ve taken down some wall decals and touched up the paint here and there. And yes, we’ve been selling stuff that we can’t take back to Germany. Also we constantly meet people for the last time – hugging, crying, promising to stay in touch. Our backyard looks empty – no slide, no sandbox, no furniture. But that’s about it! All the picture frames are still on the wall, the fridge is well-stocked, there’s time for splashing in the pool, play-dates in the afternoon, and sometimes all we do is read a book.
But it’s only one more week, 7 more days until the movers are coming and our life as we know it is going to disappear in boxes and bubble wrap.
But instead of always focussing, thinking, talking and writing (!) about my sadness of leaving Chattanooga and closing this chapter of our American family life – at least for a while – I’m now trying to focus on the positive aspects of life as it is right now. I want to live the last days in Chattanooga to the fullest and get excited not only about our upcoming trip to the West Coast, but also about moving back to Germany after 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 years!
And you know what also happened? With the Riverbend fireworks last Saturday I checked a very meaningful item off of my “99 things I want to do before I move back to Germany“-list. Why meaningful? About a year ago the fireworks was the first thing I put on my bucket list. I’ve been wanting to go for such a long time, but it never worked out. So this year I went and I’m so glad I did! The fireworks truly were amazing and afterward, for the first time ever, I experienced a very new feeling: I’m ready now, ready to say good-bye to Chattanooga, ready to start a new life chapter!
And for the next couple of days I’m only planning to do those things that make me happy, leaving the Kleenex box at home. I’m going to enjoy the sun, spend as much time at the pool as possible, meet my friends for a coffee and celebrate a fun good-bye party on the weekend with BBQ, drinks and s’mores galore!
Better let this be one of the best weeks that we’ve ever had in Chattanooga!!!